Living well with cancer
Bouton has also participated in other clinical trials, including ones related to tumor sequencing and to genetics, due to his family history of cancer. That said, Cheng notes that Bouton’s response is not typical.
“His course has defied expectations in the best possible ways,” she said. “But we do see exceptional cases, and if Drew’s case can help people feel optimistic or be more open to clinical trials, that’s a good thing. The access to clinical trials is part of being cared for at Fred Hutchinson Cancer Center. Patients now have more options than ever to keep their metastatic prostate cancer well-controlled. We know that people can live well with cancer and that we can help it stay in the background and not occupy the foreground of their life.”
Over time, as Bouton watched his life extend far beyond the two years that had been initially predicted, his attitude toward having cancer shifted. He started making plans for the future, tapping into gratitude for time he didn’t expect to have.
“I used to be very frightened about seeing a potential PSA rise,” said Bouton, who continues to have quarterly blood draws to monitor his PSA levels. “For a long time in the early stages, I didn’t think I would live long, and I made that assumption in my relationships with people. After a while, my psychologist stopped me and said, ‘I looked through your file and don’t see anything that indicates you’re going to be dying soon. At that moment, I realized I don’t need to keep thinking that way. I could actively continue pursuing my life.”
When he was first diagnosed, he felt that he didn’t want to burden anyone. But the woman who is now his wife stayed with him, and they got married in 2004. Four years later, they adopted a toddler daughter after fostering her for three years; she used to nap on Bouton’s gurney while he was receiving infusions. She has grown up, never knowing her father as someone who doesn’t have cancer. At the same time, she has witnessed her father deliberately shift his approach to his disease.
“My attitude toward it has gradually changed,” said Bouton, a policy director with the Washington State Department of Financial Institutions, a regulatory agency that oversees consumer protection and financial services. “As I decided to build a family, I’ve gotten less apprehensive. I’ve grown accustomed to the status quo where I am stable.”